Sleepless and Spaceless

I roll over again and shimmy myself into a comfortable position.  161…162…163…  Maybe I should go to 500 this time. 169…170…171…  Screw that.  Lying here doing nothing is stupid.  I’m getting up at 300 if I don’t fall asleep—no, 250.  184…185…186…187…  oh, who am I kidding?  I’m getting up now.

And so went my night last night.  I’d gone to bed at about 11 PM but only to lie there thinking about my future and other deep things for an hour and a half.  After that, I tried to pretend my mind was a zen garden.


I’d drag my rake through the sand of my mind, position the rocks, which represent my current preoccupations, in a circle, in a line, in a seemingly non-ordered scattergram.  Blah.  I am not a sand box, although my worries do sometimes feel like rocks in my head.  So I started counting because that sometimes helps me fall asleep.  I used to try and do the alphabet backwards…but I’m way too good at that now.  It doesn’t matter if I count backwards and in Spanish either.  It’s getting more and more difficult to trick my brain into self-shutdown.

I decided this time that if I had to be awake, I might as well make something of it.  I’m always feeling “too tired” to do things during the day so, if I was doomed to stay awake, I shouldn’t just lie there.  There’s only so much time I can spend raking my zen garden.  Plus, lying there feels so unproductive…and we all know that productivity is the capitalistic core of life, right?  Oh yeah…no more deep thinking either.  Stop it.  It’s a wonder I’ve been able to sleep at all this week with the chaos that engulfs my room right now anyways.  I decided some spring winter cleaning might help me feel organized and carry over that sensation into other aspects of my life.

I organized my closet, my cupboards, my shoes, every drawer.  My floor got swept, shelves dusted, bed made.  Granted, I did a half-ass job…but it still looks 100% better.  I’ve even managed to wash most of my clothes.  In fact, my laundry is closer to completion than it’s been since before I left for the summer (…five months ago…)  The order gives me the illusion that I am on top of things, in control, and allows me to shut my eyes for sleeping purposes during what those diurnal weirdos call “night-time.”

As I tediously sorted through the leftover hurricane debris in my desk drawers, I came across a couple of yellowed sheets of paper—an inventory of my suitcases upon departure from the USA.


I promise I’m not THAT OCD…it was a suggestion to catalogue our suitcases by my study abroad program since I was bringing enough for a whole year.  If my suitcases were to lose their ways (which, let’s face it, with my luck, is very likely), I would be able to remember what I’d lost in each.  Reading the lists now, as I was organizing my room, I laughed out loud.  That’s all that fits in two suitcases?!  What am I going to do with everything I have now? Hahahahahaha.  Yeah, no.

Here is the original list:


  • Laptop
  • 2 chargers
  • Kindle + charger
  • Camera + charger
  • Purse
  • Wallet—ISIC, Insurance, Savings, Debit, Credit, Passport, Fake, Driver’s License, $20, etc.
  • Scope
  • Random Trinkets
  • Phone
  • Makeup—3 bags
  • Perfume + Jewelry
  • Shoes (DC)
  • Rain Jacket
  • Coloring Book + crayons
  • Travel guide
  • Cosmo I stole from Rachel
  • Brush
  • Converter kit
  • 750 GB external hard drive
  • Memory card adapters + USBs + 2 mini memory cards
  • Otterbox
  • A/C—USB
  • MP3 + charger
  • 2 pairs Skull Candy headphones (1 never made it to Argentina though…)
  • Phone charger
  • Folder of important documents
  • Contacts
  • Deodorant
  • Retainers

  • Lots of clothes
  • Flask + funnel
  • Hiren’s & Backtrack
  • Allergy meds
  • Calculator
  • Belts (4) (in retrospect, I’m not sure why this is relevant to list near “lots of clothes”…)
  • Sentimental shirt 😦
  • Brush #2
  • Razor
  • Suitcase lock


  • 3-4 outfits
  • Nike running shoes
  • Ryan’s green Hollister coat

Ok, so hopefully you didn’t read that word for word.  It’s not important what I brought so much as sheer quantity of what I have now.  Which is why I gave you the contents of that list for compare-ment simplicity.  Here is what the same inventory would look like if I were to up and red-eye back to Colorado right now:

  • Laptop
  • 2 chargers
  • Kindle + charger
  • Camera + charger
  • Broken camera + charger
  • HDMI cord
  • Wallet—ISIC, Driver’s license, savings, debit, credit, LANPass Visa, Passport, Fake, School IDs (3), Sube, Gym membership, etc.
  • Makeup—2 bags
  • Perfume + Jewelry ++++
  • DCs
  • BOOOOOOOTS (which are totally inappropriate for Buenos Aires’ climate)
  • Nikes
  • Flip flops
  • Leather boots
  • Black boot heels
  • Black “shoe” boots
  • Sandal heels
  • Heels (wedding)
  • Sol’s strappy heels
  • Rain Jacket
  • Coat (Ryan’s)
  • Leather Jacket
  • Red long sweater
  • Alpaca sweater
  • Black double coat (Halloween/HIMYM)
  • Coloring Book + crayons
  • Travel guide
  • Leftover antibiotics (because I grew up in the States and I hoard those things…)
  • 6 Notebooks + 6 textbooks + 2 loose leaf textbooks + 3 folders + 2 bags of “important documents”/“memories”**
  • Highligheters, whiteout, pens, notecards, glitter glue, paper clips, safety pins (which hold together most of my daily wardrobe), ribbon, gold glitter glue, 4 shoe boxes, 109345 plastic/paper/weird-shiny-stuff bags, and 1 large poster board
  • Qtips
  • Journal
  • Giant thermos
  • Baby thermos w/case
  • Plate w/ cover
  • Fork, knife, spoon
  • 3 pairs of broken headphones
  • 2 novels
  • 2 brushes
  • Cosmo I stole from Rach
  • Converter kit
  • External hard drive (almost broken…)
  • Memory card adapters + USBs + 0 mini memory cards
  • Otterbox
  • A/C—USB (2)
  • MP3 + charger
  • Phone charger
  • Contacts
  • 3 weird spray deodorants
  • Lots of clothes
  • Lots more clothes
  • Even more clothes
  • And then some clothes
  • Benadryl
  • Ibupirac
  • Calculator
  • Pendrite (Jump drive)
  • -1 sentimental shirt 😦
  • 2 calendars
  • Map of Ushuaia
  • Lotions and sprays and creams and soaps and (see below)
  • Retainers
  • Flossers
  • Listerine
  • Toothbrush (2) + Toothpaste (3)
  • Scrunchies and hairties and hair clips I bought here…
  • Chilean pesos, US dollars, Bolivianos, Reais, and some Argentine Pesos (I never exchanged…)
  • Earplugs
  • Muñequera
  • 3 bottles nail polish
  • Guitar + soft case
  • 3 purses
  • 3 scarves
  • 2 hats
  • Towel
  • Bottle of fernet (half-full)
  • Bottle of coke (almost empty)
  • Mate + bombilla
  • Huge thing of yerba + extra bag of weird herbs to add I found in China town that *ironically* are supposed to help insomnia
  • Sleeping bag
  • Can of peas (idk…)
  • Leftover spaghetti
  • McCafe glass (don’t ask…it was a phase)
  • Old Argentine coins Lauti gave me
  • 2 Rosaries
  • Hiren’s + 2 Backtracks (idk, they just magically doubled)
  • -1 phone…

**I call these “memories” but really I’m just weird.  When I got here I got this awesome stupid idea to collect every label of every product I used/food I ate/ beer I drank because it was in Spanish and that’s cool normal.  The result takes up two of the three drawers in my desk and is painful for me to think about throwing away.  I worked hard collecting that stuff…and it will be useful someday for like, I don’t know, a scrapbook or something right? Or just proof that people live in the Southern hemisphere and I, yes me, actually went there?!  …right?

***I would explain all of the weird stuff but for the sake of length…yeah just don’t worry about it 😉

****Oh and about all of the bottles of conditioner/shampoo/lotion/nailpolishremover/lotion/soap/godknowswhat below…see Jenna Marble’s video Things I Don’t Understand About Girls in regards to “goo hoarding”.


I didn’t realize I could accumulate that much STUFFFFF!  AND  I’ve yet to buy souveneirs for everyone back home…  I guess it’s a good thing I’ll be able to leave a lot of things here, but still!  How did I manage to gain 6 pairs of shoes?!  SIX SEVEN PAIRS OF SHOES?!  Who uses that many shoes???  Ok, apparently I do, but how is it then, that I find myself missing the clothes and shoes I left back in the US?  I want my gladiator sandals 😦  Or my brown platform heels…those were so comfortable!  <–see why I’m a lost cause?

I haven’t machine-dried my clothes in a year.  I haven’t used a dishwasher or a garbage disposal in a year.  It doesn’t feel like it’s been that long…but I guess it has been a while.   Anyways, I’m doomed.  I’m contemplating just leaving all of that entire list of things here ) and just filling my suitcases with alfajores, fernet, and mate.  What do you guys think?

P.S.  I was going to say it’s been a year since I’ve driven a car but Lauti let me drive his new Jeep at the beach in Pinamar 3 weekends ago! 😀  I didn’t crash or anything!!!  Here’s visual proof (that I drove…you’ll just have to trust that I didn’t crash 😉 )


About Autumn Standing

I love words; my name is made up of real words, even. I am studying Global Tourism and Spanish with a minor in Business Administration at Colorado State University but this year I chose to study abroad in Buenos Aires, Argentina. That's why this blog was born--to keep my beautiful family and friends informed of my whereabouts, thoughts, accomplishments, and mistakes.

Posted on May 25, 2013, in Spring Semester, Travel and Study. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.

  1. Sounds like a plan…! 🙂

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